Just One Of Those Days

VENTING....


I seriously cant figure out whats wrong with me today! I'm sooo frustrated and anxious which isn't a good mix of feelings! I think I need some kind of anxiety medication. I use to have social anxiety meds but I didn't like the way they made me feel so I never continued taking them!

I miss everyone! I never get to see my best friends because they live to far away or are working all the time and I miss 3 boys that hold a special place in my heart! I cant even list all the people that id love to see right now! I need out of this house! I feel like im stuck in a cage! I'm 18 years old almost 19 in a few months and I feel like I live the life of a 10 year old! Its disgusting and makes me sick but I don't know what to do!

My family sucks!! My sister is a complete bitch 75% of the time, my mother is a workaholic but "has no choice" and my grandmother is just a cranky old lady that is to lazy to drive me an hour away when I need to see my best friend! I need cuddle time with my "little sister" before I cry my eyes out!! I feel like everyone around me is always doing something and im just frozen in time! Ugggh!! 2 more days of this fucking month! Lets get it over with!